Day 3: Self Portrait, Post Loss
This is the exact day I delivered Carpenter, just a few hours before he came into the world silently. I don't know why, but I was taking a few pictures around the room, and decided to turn the camera on myself. I'm swollen and puffy from crying and being on fluids for days. I hesitated to post this picture, because I feel so ugly. But it was an ugly moment, so this photo is as honest as I could possibly be. I was destroyed, lost, broken and ugly. And still some days I feel just like this photo. This is my grief.