Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Day 3, Capturing My Grief

Day 3:  Self Portrait, Post Loss

This is the exact day I delivered Carpenter, just a few hours before he came into the world silently.  I don't know why, but I was taking a few pictures around the room, and decided to turn the camera on myself.  I'm swollen and puffy from crying and being on fluids for days.  I hesitated to post this picture, because I feel so ugly.  But it was an ugly moment, so this photo is as honest as I could possibly be.  I was destroyed, lost, broken and ugly.  And still some days I feel just like this photo.  This is my grief.

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